I contacted the owner of the padeva.com and asked that he consider a thread related to his site on Blue's forum.  I found his site fascinating.  He mentions some concepts that I had planned to thread at Blue's.  I didn't want to start a thread here and try and continue there.

I think Zenden and several others are planning to do some interesting stuff on his site, as well.

Ent Doc, any particular reason why you're changing locations (for the March ceremony)?

Interesting question. It's a little complicated, but I discovered a small group that has ceremonies a little closer to home. I know very little about them, but I have become online friends with a participant, who has attended their ceremonies, and he had a very good experience.

http://www.padeva.com/

Some 15 years ago I reached a conclusion that there is something out there that holds this world together.  I found the synchronicity in serendipity and began to follow life through intuition as well as I knew how.  Like living life on the edge of reality like mist above a wave, I started to see correlations and affirmations to my journey all around me.  Life is a dream has been at the core of my thoughts and much as come into my life to prove this. 
A woman to whom I had a soul connection to was once telling me about a book she read when she was a kid called "The Caterpillar Pillar".  It was the kind of book for her that lead her to seeking the true meaning of life.  I tried to find the book on line only to discover it was out of print.  (apparently it has recently been re released) A day or two later we decided to go for a drive, we saw a sign for a garage sale and decided to stop and check it out.  There it was, in a box of books.  My journey with her didn't end there, we ended up moving to Oregon together and so much more happened that I will stray from that story. There were some hasty decisions made and many misunderstandings among friends and family but she is there now and doing well and I am here.  I fear my narcissism could interfere sometimes and I try to be humble but when I feel a thing is right, I go for it.

I've also experienced some dreams that had a tremendous impact on me.  Once, when I was just starting out with my experimentation of psychedelics I had a the following dream. 
I was sitting in an empty room looking over a large city that resembled an MC Escher sketch.  The city was in the shape of a stadium and the rim was filled with cement structures with randomly placed right angles, much like randomly stacked non uniform blocks.  I was in one of those rooms looking down at the center where there was a round stage.  The stage was far away but I could see right up to the crowd that formed around it.  On the stage was a dance, a sort of ritualistic fire dance where the players were dressed in primitive native outfits while they danced in a circle with torches.  They would place their  torches in a circle as if they were being placed into holders on the stage.  They then took more torches and created another circle above the first creating a sort of fire pillar. The crowd was diverse and resembled a rave or some youth driven party.  I then saw off to the side a group of proteseters, conservatively dressed with button up shirts, ties real blue collar types.  The crowd began chanting "Fire, Fire, Fire".  Just as the conservative crowd started protesting "No Fire, No Fire". As this was going on I thought to myself why are these people protesting the fire dancers, it's just a performance/ritual whatever, why couldn't they let them be.  The scene then changed to all the members of the crowd running across a lawn towards a row of suburban houses and tearing down fences, breaking windows, rioting.  I then woke up startled.  The level of reality in this dream was/is indescribable.

Two days later a friend came over to tell me he got some Acid.  It would be the first time I tried something this strong.  We hung out for a while while it kicked in and as soon as we felt the peak, we went down the street from my house to a park.  It was an amazing night for this being summer and in my parts summer storms are not common.  Well the wind was blowing warm and billowing clouds could be seen on the horizon.  This is where it happened.  I was standing on a jungle gym looking around when I discovered it was cylinder shaped with red metal rings going up to the platform where I stood.  At this point I remembered my dream and just laughed at the coincidence.   I then looked around the playground and noticed the cement walkway surrounding us was a circle, much like the stage in my dream. Still not convinced I started to tell my friend about the dream.  Just then I looked around the park which was all grass surrounded by 60's style suburban clone homes which looked exactly like the ones attacked by the rioting crowd.

The dream has been rehashed many times by me and I have come to feel it was forewarning that playing with fire is no party and all aspects of the psychedelic experience should be taken very seriously.  Serious fun not excluded.

Now this is entirely subjective and being inspired by a dream may or may not be a premonition.

The biggest moment in my dream experience was two weeks before the september 11 bombings in New York.  The scene in the dream was much like a couple other dreams in which I am kneeling on a hill, overlooking whatever it is the dream is there to show.  Beside me is a shadowed figure, who I never really see.  The figure and I discuss the scene.

In front of us was a landscape, it was as if we were a thousand feet above a city.  The buildings looked like early flight simulator games, or a low res google earth image.  Flatland.  There was a peninsula jutting out into a large river and on the end was two squares billowing smoke into the sky.  One white, one gray they spiraled upward.  The figure next to me was entertained by this and mentioned how cool it was that "those buildings just collapsed".  My response was the oposite and I asked why he could enjoy this, "people are dead down there" was in my reply.  I woke up and wrote the dream in my journal.
Two weeks later it happened, and upon waking up to the news I was instantly reminded of the dream.  I haven't been the same since.

I write this now from a place in the Santa Cruz mountains.  I have been following my "intuition" for some time now and have reached a sort of stall pattern.  I am reminded of a line from the movie Waking Dream where a character says something to the extent that once you get into the details you no longer see the big picture.  I may be getting that wrong but that's how I feel now.  Misdirected and alone on my spiritual journey.  I moved out here to find someone or some place to go where I can foster and grow my connection to life.  Mainly to find my place in the bigger scheme of things.  I've been fighting off depression and anxiety over my decisions and reliving the incessant doubt that is always at my heels.  Am I the only guide in this?  If I don't watch where I'm going could I lose myself in the chaos?  Another book comes to mind, one I read many years ago called "Way of the Peaceful Warrior".  In it was the warning, once you start on this path you had better follow through because the only other option is insanity.

I am hopeful and feel this time in my life is just another process, another learning opportunity along the path to enlightenment.  I was thinking I could just come here and walk around until I found what it is I should go for but as I am a believer in all faith I have no conviction to one.  I now realize and I'll reference a bible quote here "god helps those who help themselves".  The metaphor stands true and I feel now I must reach out and seek the answers, with a plan.  Walking blindly into life with one eye open now and again just to be sure.  (and carrying a map)

Thanks for reading

Life is an illusion

-jeez, I hope so

I was just going to post an announcement that I will be attending an ayahuasca ceremony on March 22 and then again sometime in July. The place I am going in March is new to me, so I have no idea if the experience will be the same or not. In July I'll be going to Columbia again. This site will be closed by then, so if you want to check in on my accounts I'll post them on the ayahuasca forums (ayahuasca.com) http://forums.ayahuasca.com/phpbb/  and the knock off Noble Realms forum if it is still up and running.

So stay tuned and we'll see if The Lady makes an appearance again.

Susie

WEll I was reading your last post earlier today and you were talking about the humming.  I do not know if this is a common occurence or power of suggestion but as i was reading i became very calm and focused and i noticed a dim undernoise as i call it.  It was not distinct humming just like a dim noise not sure how to describe it and then almost as i realized it was there my ears popped it got louder then dissipated.  just thought i would share.  hope to read more on your experiences soon ty

Dude if you're ears popped that means something in your brain just got activated. Was it like a really big *POP*? We were talking about this on the Icke forum a while ago.

Once again, awesome message.  I would add other possibilities as to what these experiences could be, as slightly embellished truth's (just as the Lady told you your pyramidal model of the universe was in fact not correct),  stories told by entities who are not who they say they are such as tricksters or even Archons/Lizzie deception.  From my personal experience I believe the experience to be "real", as in not imagined, but to elaborate more then that it is to hard to say.  To many boundaries of reality are crossed when you enter this space to determine what it is we are really experiencing.   

I appreciate you sharing your experience with us.

Above, you wrote that perhaps everything is a deception. I have taken the thought very seriously the past 6 months. In fact I'm convinced it may be true. There was an interesting quote I ran into on the David Icke forum posted by one of the members reading a certain book, it went something like this: "All manner of lifeforms in the multiverse want to manipulate you into thinking that they are God, or your God. They offer themselves to you and allow you to worship them. Great care must be taken when you journey to other realms."

I feel like the deeper I get into this stuff, the more I feel like I'm in Alice in Wonderland. For example, I still consider Icke at the forefront of the truth, but I no longer have faith that he's being told 100% of the truth. Even he admits that he doesn't know what's fully going on. This is a real can of worms, I mean I don't even know where to start.

The Lady speaks in the language of duality, polarity, and (through Icke) Gnosticism. For example, Ent Doc was revealed that God is the Lady and the Father represented as the Yin and Yang. Masculine and feminine are dualistic concepts, forms. They are fleeting. Or in other words, why would God need to BE masculine and feminine, or good or bad, or any-THING? According to the personal experience by Tolle, the multiverse --anything that can be known, that has form-- is the expression or dream of God. Behind that, or more accurately surrounding it, giving it the potentiality to be form, IS God, the formless no-thing, consciousness, enlightenment. Therefore, The Lady is nothing but a fleeting conceptual form, part of the dream that is the multiverse. I believe that pure consciousness created a form-aspect of itself for the purpose of lifeforms within the dream to experience God as an entity SEPARATE from them which can be known. In other words, the multiverse dream is God experiencing itself subjectively through people, animals, angels, demons, and at the top of it all are the ultimate specific expressions of God within the multiverse, The Lady and The Father. Beyond that is the true formless God within which the dream can be a dream.

Similar to a child creating an imaginary friend because she's lonely, God (pure formless consciousness) created a dream version of itself which takes on form, in this case the Mother figure and the Father figure. God created God. Therefore it is possible that what the Lady is revealing IS true on some level. For example, it is accurate to a point to say that The Lady is God. On the highest level though there is nothing but God. And specifically, there are seemingly 2 things: The no-thing, and the multiverse, which are actually one.

So I conclude that there is a Good chance that The Lady isn't manipulation. She's revealing things that need to be revealed, and nothing more. I don't believe it's manipulation by demonic entities, but it is a possibility.

Cleft_Asunder wrote:

You really need to check out the 2 bottom links I gave you, which come from the Ayahuasca forum.

You know, you are right. I checked those links on the Ayahuasca forum, and it is uncanny how the description of the ayahuasca experience is so similar to mine. I swear it is almost like we were the same person, but that dude sounded a little too freaked out by the whole thing. To be honest, he sounded a little nutty with his "Something Big is Coming" crap. If I were you, I would totally disregard anything that nutcase has to say. He needs to stay off the Aya and get some serious professional counseling.

Capitan wrote:

I can answer this from my experience.  Can you recall the contents of a dream? ...

What he said.

Wait a second, that was YOU who posted at the Aya forum!

"""""Dance of the Four Winds: Secrets of the Medicine Wheel

By Alberto Villoldo, Ph.D. and Erik Jendresen. In this riveting narrative of spiritual discovery Alberto Villoldo journeys to Peru to investigate the practices used by Indian shamans to access the four paths of the Medicine Wheel."""""

I did a search on "ayahuasca".  It brought me to this forum and directly to the thread started by the member, "ayahuasca" and eventually Captain's sharing.

Alberto's experience spands 15 years.  Worth Reading!  Just truly amazing.

So thank you all for sharing your experiences. 

P.S.   Oh!, by the way, this was way back in  February 2007...ha!ha!