I'll tell you what has been freaking me out lately.

Sit for a moment and contemplate deeply, go back to the beginning, try to find a beginning in the immensness of eternity.
Try to picture the start of everything.

I was sitting mulling over the old saying, what came first, the chicken or the egg.
I found myself thinking about the big bang and how something was created out of nothing, or created from quarks or how quarks got there or was it created out of things we cannot yet see or know of  that exisit in other dimensions.
I thought about an authors claim that a certain Vortex, or something similar, just was and started vibrating and created the Divine spark and different creatures of varying/higher and lower vibrations.
Who in turn,created there own "sparks".
I thought of a Supreme being that just was or was created by another.
I took all these possibilities back to the source and concluded that is very weird indeed, that if we are here, if the universes exists, if multiple dimensions exist, how did anything first come into being.
How can something or someone just be.
Were and how did it all begin and is it even possible.
The fact that we are here says that there had to be start to us.
Even other dimensions need a start?
Whatever  we are, a test , an experiment, physical entities  that are gone when we die, eternal beings.
What is our source, the source of everything and how is this even possible?
Were did it all begin?
How do you think from nothing was something and everything began or came into existence.
Before anything was, what was?

PS:Oh dear no replies yet.
I'm actually looking for material or links on this subject even yours/others thoughts.
It's a topic I find the most facinating and would dearly like to hear others postulations.