I am currently reading a book you might find enlightening. "Shadow Dance" by David Richo.  Facing the mystery nay start with facing one's personal shadow and our collective shadow together.

Quote from the book: "The only devils are the ones in our own hearts.  That is where the battle should be fought."  ~~ Gandhi

We're on the same path together. Sometimes we can help each other.

At a sermon on a mount:

"Look, things got a little messed up,you come from here, your purpose is this, this is how life's meant to be lived and we need to do this to acheive it and oh yeah, here's whats going to happen to the world in 2000 or so years and here's how things actually function,sorry but deception is all that lies here".

Why on Earth would there be any need to hide the truth, or expose it only in parts?
WAs the truth hidden,do great souls know the world is not ready for such mind-blowing information,that they would be laughted out of town, that it needed to be put in simpler form,like telling children half truths to save them from the whole?
Part truth cannot be concidered whole truth and is therefore a deception.
Is this true,can it be,the entire thing is one great big deception, beyond all understanding of those souls, when trapped within it?
When I thought to myself years ago, "I think we all are caught in a loop of some sort", or "Somethings emitting frequencies at us, I can feel it", or "ah ha, imagine,they made a film about a Matrix and they don't even realise they are within one", was this the truth prompting me, preparing me?

I was a down-to-earth -eat -my- shorts, ufo's and people who belive in them are nuts, hard working, pleasure seeking,beer swilling, I don't give a crap what the truth is ,kind of guy.
All of a sudden my soul/mind is repeating, gimmie the truth ,gimmie the truth.
All of a sudden im living in ecstacy (I should concider myself lucky cos I'm deffinitely not worthy) for hours at a time.
Pure joy has come to say "Hello, how the hell are you" for a while.
Why, after all these years is the truth only now being exposed to all who seek it and it turns out to be very different from what we thought? (I know the changing in earth and universal frequencies, peoples desire to know the truth, pre-arranged awakenings, etc)

I genuinely need no more earthly master or guru or whoever to tell me how things are, only those who say,here's what we beleive to be true, if you seek it,go get it, if it is revealed as truth, in ways you know are manifest and true, then you have found it.

I can only beleive those thoughts,feelings, prompts and events that cannot be explained by ordinary everyday physics and certainly none preached by others as truth.

Only the truth itself being told by itself is what I can any longer beleive and we will know when this is.

The deception here has been complete and all encompassing, if I didn't know any better it would almost make me sad.

The "Devil" can appear as an angel of light and by God he is shining bright, oh and he's not really "The Devil".

There are soooo many beliefs but only one major underlying fact must show the truth.

That we must forget everything we know, that it's all lies, we mustn't beleive a thing and "will" the truth to us,to seek us out and punch us in the face.Accept nothing less.

I'd love to know how to break "more" free that I already have,(Love more, I know, good start), how to become more aware of the true state of reality,how many have come to all these conclusions, how we know about the deception,matrix,other dimensions,invisible beings,unseen war, etc.
I'd love to know your beleifs,what people here beleive, if a beleif system is relevent.
Mabye how you see the world and can you point a newbie to the stars? or just point?

PS:I know you hae been asked this before but I'm pondering on buying more Lynn Grabhorns books or others,are there any  that you  recommend that will help me on this journey of discovery?