Secret is: don't look back, don't think about anything from the past for a while; just focus on surviving the present moment.

Eventually, you will realize that this was all part of your own plan for yourself.  You did this to make sure that you remembered something.  I think I chose my path to remember about psychopaths and to be led to the C's, to really get down and dirty to understand the negativity of this planet at a deep level. 

Now these remembering plans have served their purpose and I am in the process of cleaning up the mess so to speak.  This incarnation has been one hell of a trip for me, and for all of us as far as I can tell.  Gack!  Hope we can survive to see all our plans through.

Good Luck!
Kathy

Hi WOD, hope this finds you adjusting to the changes, hard as it must be. I wish you well in your new freedom where there is less pain and restriction. You are courageous in moving on; to not live a lie. And to give the lie the truth by moving on.

Sometimes when pain is so close to us, we can't see the bigger picture. My words are inadequate, but strangely enough, some words you shared in the current affairs thread about accepting All is One and accepting the world as it is, seem to ring true for yoursituation at present. WE have all the answers we need within.

This is what you wrote:

May you have the strength to apply this knowing to your current situation.

Love,

V

Both my parents stayed married for 17 years longer than they should have because they were programmed and conditioned - via Catholic upbringings as well as television - about how things were "supposed" to be, so consequently, both were a collassal mess after the divorce.    It was very interesting to say the least in retrospect when I think about their divorce and how they handled it...or didn't handle it, is more like it.   Many people casually divorce like they're changing clothes.   For my parents it was like getting socked in the gut, due to all that programming, all that TV, all that religion.   What a mess.............

I must have watched too much Leave it to Beaver when I was a kid, I carried a lot of illusions about having a happy family. I can hear the judge and the critic inside telling me I'm a failure, how can you be so stupid.

Try not to be so hard on yourself lovey, okay? You are not a failure, and "the judge and the critic" are a product of programming... I really don't think they are a part of you.

Who ever could've known in the 50's that television programming would become one of the greatest impediments on our couplings and offspring. They raised up ideals about familial relationships that didn't reflect life back then, much less now. Relationships were difficult then, and they're difficult today. The only thing is today we're just plain ole confused about what we think are our own expectations of the perfect family. They are not our expectations, they're implanted expectations.

I'm sorry to hear you are in pain WE... . Just try to not be so hard on yourself, and hang in there... you never know, maybe a severing of the relationship will open your life up to some new possibilties you've only dreamed of... genuinely dreamed of , not fantasy implants of TPTB .