Yeah, I've heard of that author and book, though I have yet to read it.

I am familiar with the concept and idea that schizophrenics see the world in a more sensitive specifically 'connected-way'.  It's true.  In fact, what can be an especially hard obstacle for manic-depressed and schizophrenic afflicted people, is the over-stimulation of the senses creating a sort of info overload.  A state where it's hard to differentiate between the various incoming stimuli that the organic brain receives. 

Modern-day nueroleptic medicines (like the newer, so-called, atypical anti-psychotic psychotropic drugs such as zyprexa, seroquel, abilify, respiridone, etc) do indeed provide relief of symptons (ie. intrusive thoughts (could actually be higher-dimensional presences/beings intruding upon those weak in the area of psychic-defenses), mind-reading, extra-sensory perception (esp), clairvoyance, clairsentience, clairaudience, delusions, paranoia, neg-symptons, apathy (misperceived laziness), alogia (loss of clear thinking and word formulation), anhedonia (loss of enjoyment in activities), anti-social behaviors (isolation/withdrawal), delusions of grandeur/omnipotence, and others).  It's amazing how improvements in chemical methods of treating various brain disorders has developed.  Just in the last decade or so, these improvements have been discovered and made.  Although there is much more research needed in the efficacy of neuroleptics, and the necessary reducement of medicines' side-effects which make many mentally-ill patients quit taking their meds.

I will say that unfortunately it is true that these drugs act as chemical straight-jackets on patients.

There is much backlash and lawsuits in suing pharmecuetical companies that fail to make clear to patients and families the very serious potential for life-threatening and debilitating effects of their drugs/meds.

For most individuals and families suffering from mental-illness (or attack by paranormal denizens) there is no choice but to medicate (and sometimes over-medicate) those afflicted with tranquilizing and subduing drugs.

I have to point out I don't agree with certain researchers and organizations like Scientology or other critics that it's better to never take mind-altering nueroleptic medicines...

There have been numerous tragic cases where patients have stopped taking their medicines and ended up committing suicide or assaults giving schizophrenia/manic-depression a very bad but understandable stigma and image (often portrayed thru the media in sensationalistic cases/examples).

So, that's my primer on the illness and condition known as schizophrenia and/or manic-depression.

There is of course more details and instances of descriptions/tangents of these conditions.

Lastly, I've been writing this to the background music of the rock group 'Tears for Fears' (Tears Roll Down-greatest hits 82-92)

and the song 'Sewing the Seeds of Love' in which the lyrics goes ...'if you are a worried man, shout about it, high time we made a stand and shook up the views of the common man, they look to the skies for some kind of divine intervention, we're fools to the rules of a government plan, feel the pain, talk about it, everyone read about it, read about it, sewing the seeds, an end to need, and the politics of greed, with love...'

and the song 'Shout' with the lyrics 'shout, shout, let it all out, these are the things I can do without, in violent times, you shouldn't have to sell your soul, in black in white they really ought to know... come on, I'm talking to you, come on, ...they gave you life and in return you gave them hell, as cold as ice, I hope we live to tell the tale...'

and the song 'Everybody Wants to Rule the World' says- 'all for freedom and for pleasure, nothing lasts forever, welcome to your life, there's no turning back, even while we sleep, we will find you...'

and the song 'Mad World' which says- 'all around me are familiar faces, worn out places, bright and early for their daily races, going nowhere, their tears are filling up their glasses, no expression, no tomorrow, and I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad, the Dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had, I find it hard to tell you, cos I find it hard to take, when people run in circles, it's a very, mad world, children waiting for the day they feel good, ...mad world, halogeon world, mad world'

Just an example of a mad-man listening to music and interpreting it in his own strange way and applying it to the world (some lyrics may be non-linear and mis-interpreted).

I had a Vietnam era vet friend who taught me the art of turning on the random radio or putting in a tape or cd and then simultaneously turning on the t.v. with sound all the way down and seeing/hearing the subsequent coincidences input.

Interestingly, I notice in the collage and artwork of the cd-liner of the album (produced in 1992) that there are a multitude of images/photos, of which include a snake, a butterfly, a frog, a fish, a Sun, a rose, an indian, a dragonfly, a monkey, a starfish, monies, watches, tapes, the world-trade center twin towers (with eyes near it and a watch), saturn, empire state building, statue of liberty, the earth, sattelites, computer screen, birds, baby, leaves, greek statues, horses, other odd items, and a stabilo-boss brand highlighting pen (which I used to use in my highlighting of various texts/books).

Amazing the secret esoteric images/artwork they produce in music/albums and media, t.v., movies...

Signing out for now,
-Indigo

Have you read Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot? Having only a general knowledge about schizophrenia and such, his book gives a view on how manic/depressives and Schizophrenics experience the "world" more specifically the interconnectedness. It sounds plausible to me, but wondering how you viewed his comments if you read them. If you haven't read them you might find it helpful/interesting as well.

I think my wayward father does have some direct influence.  I don't personally know my bio-father as I have chosen to not meet him.

Very weird stuff.

-Indigo

whereas i know where you're coming from, and ive read many of the things you mention, i cannot attest to that much strangeness within my own immediate life-- but i do get some of it. certainly the reason for this is because i am not connected to military whatsoever in my family, as you are. that is a MAJOR factor in harrassment/manipulation/tracking of persons.

My brother is in the military.  Since I don't have any problems, I guess I'm pretty harmless.  Should I take it as an insult on my lack of any dangerous knowledge?  How sad for me.

Anyway, I remember my brother calling from the base one time, and I asked him if they thought they monitored his calls.  He said probably, but he didn't know.  He really could care less if the military might be evil incarnate as long as he gets to feel good about the ego boost it gives him.  Doesn't bother me, though.  He is who he is, and is innocent, as far as I'm concerned.  Anyhow, I proceeded to ask him if perhaps certain keywords would trigger an active listening, so I started saying words like: President Bush, ass***ination (don't want to trigger an internet echelon for Montalk), New World Order.

I lead a pretty peaceful life.

What do you think it takes?  A parent in the military?

It is true that there is a bi-polar extreme of fear and hope (darkness and light) which the Stoics/ExtraTerrestrials use as a juxtapositioning tactic to control.

I used to live independently in a large metro American city, but about three years ago moved back in with my mother (like the struggling schizophrenic Syd Barrett, former Pink Floyd rock member did), in a small town.  However, due to my distinct German/Aryan/Nordic/British/Scandin-avian looks/features and shining eyes quality, I find I often get strange and taunting sneers by local townsfolk (so I will most likely relocate to a larger more European populated region, even considering another country as I feel that America will soon be undergoing a large amount of upheaval NWO instigated problem/reaction/solution events).

FYI-last night on PrimeTime Live with Peter Jennings on ABC News (check abcnews.com) they had a show on called 'No Place to Hide' --just another example of the ratcheting up of the terror threat and Big Brother Brave New World thrust the media spins these days (trying to use scare tactics on the American public/masses as you point out too).

Lastly, although I did not mention it in any post thus far, my biological father was in the American Air Force in the sixties, and of German descent, and I am an illegitimate child.  I have read that these Aryan/Alien genetics human men like to go around getting women pregnant with different surnames so that they can spread their genes and have children unofficially.  I read this in a David Icke book.

I like to think of myself as not merely a 'bastard' but as Elizabeth Shue remarked in the film 'The Saint' starring Val Kilmer, she knows that 'most of us are orphans, bastards at best, but difficult childhoods make the most interesting adults...'

I really identify with the Saint character and he's one of my literary/film heroes, which Roger Moore and Val Kilmer admirably portray on film.  I can identify with that particular movie.  Val Kilmer once said in an interview that its hard when you are overweight, the girls don't look at you anymore, and I have had to deal with that because the medications I have had to take to treat my psychic/mental illness have put weight on me.

I also identify with the movie Vanilla Sky.  I do get suicidal thoughts sometimes (though I would likely never seriously follow through with them).

I take your advice to pull back and try to not get too involved in the fear aspects of the power struggles on this world.

I am trying to transmit a message to the world (something I tried to do anonymously with former websites I designed yet had to back out of and freeze due to privacy concerns/stalkers).

Thanks for your input and kind feelings.

-Indigo

whereas i know where you're coming from, and ive read many of the things you mention, i cannot attest to that much strangeness within my own immediate life-- but i do get some of it. certainly the reason for this is because i am not connected to military whatsoever in my family, as you are. that is a MAJOR factor in harrassment/manipulation/tracking of persons.

i sincerely feel ya, i just hope that you find what youre looking for

one thing i absolutely love is how you are able to draw connections of truth thru links in media, whether it be musical, film, tv, or whatever- you are right on the money everytime. this is something i (and many here) are very very attuned to - synchronicity. i believe that it is one of the most important things to pay attention to.
your structure was great with all the references and links that i think many people have been opened up in more ways that may be obvious.

remember that even if people dont respond, or respond with anger or rejection, that the information has travelled and that counts for something. at least the data has reached other sources or however u want to think of it.

also i said elsewhere remember that human nature likes to exagerate things, and alot of this end-time prophecy is grossly overexagerated for fear factors. and the "lovely/helpful" aliens propaganda is exactly opposite of that, also exagerated.

all in all i'd say youve got quite an understanding of conspiracy, and other 'negative' aspects of earth's current dilemna, so what i would suggest is to take all that with a grain of salt and aim your focus in a more positivie direction.

dont get stuck in the spiderweb of conspiracy theories!

my best wishes to you and i mean only the best when i give advice, dont mean to offend any1

z

I recently made a new post (Jan 5th, 2005) in a Radiohead (rock band) website called Revolving Doors II.

Basically, I have been mostly ignored as my post contains some really bizarre experiences and references.  I expected as much, and pointed out that I would not be posting any subsequent replies due to the nature of the post/message.  I then went to one other Radiohead site and posted a link to the original message/post (I did not want to spend the long time re-writing and re-posting it, so I merely provided a direct link, as I will do here too).  I received some instant backlash (I don't know the internet term for joining a forum and only posting a few messages? but I really don't wish to engage in small talk as the saying goes).  I was merely trying to convey some of the bizarre things in my life that seem to be included in the Radiohead lyrics/songs (especially their more recent albums like 2003's 'Hail to the Thief').  I posted a link in one other forum (a Scientology actor's site, btw-most may or may not know that L. Ron Hubbard believed that our Earth was ruled by an alien OverLord-Elite).  I do not plan to keep posting links (this will most likely be the last).

So without further ado, the link is thus- Revolving Doors II

Look under the 'Beyond Coincidence-the Sky Turns Green' thread dated Jan 5th, 2005...

(note- there are other older (2003) posts in the same forum of 'I think you're crazy...maybe' -by me which are less lucid and more casual under the username -Indigo)

I am posting this link because what I had to say took me a long time to compose and I do not wish to re-write and re-post if I can link to it instead... and let those curious/interested read it... also- there are some interesting related links imbeded within the post to semi-back up what I am trying to convey, and provide a pathway to other websites (which many in the paranormal/conspiracy field of research are already familiar with).  I have other resources (personal military contacts/experiences and underground books/radio/net sources too numerous or private to cite).  Understand, as I have initially posted in my intro within Noble Realms- New Members section pointed out- I may be involved (unwillingly with the MK-Ultra projects).  I may indeed be meglomaniacal-like, yet lucid in some ways, and I am simply trying to expose some of my handlers' machinations (mind control) thereby difusing them to some extent and warning others about the paranormal wars (an SOS in a bottle to the world, as I put it, like the artist Sting of the band 'The Police' sang in one of their songs).

http://www.cloudcuckooland.net/rd2/inde … howforum=6

As I try to point out in the message, many psychedelic rock bands (The Doors, Pink Floyd, Radiohead, are just a few) put veiled symbolic/allusional/metorphoric lyrical-references to the paranormal/ufo/conspiracy wars raging secretly among us (a quiet war as it is sometimes called).  I find all of such songs/albums very fascinating and intriguing (along with other insider info revealed through the mass media (mainstream), and underground literature and cult tv or movies -like the British t.v. sixties' series 'The Prisoner' starring Irish American born UK actor Patrick McGoohan of 'DangerMan and Secret Agent' fame).  I find espionage related books and films to be interesting too (like 'The Spy Who Came In From the Cold' starring Richard Burton).

Unlike, the other websites where I have posted my messages, I DO intend to respond to replies here.  So feel free to chime in (even if you totally disbelieve and disagree with me, or think I am just another mis/dis information agent, -I don't intend to be one, though unfortunately I may have made some wrong conclusions/speculations due to materials I have read and researched thus far which may be misleading me to make the wrong statements).

I feel I may be somewhat more accepted here than in other sites (although I do tend to remain mostly a loner and outsider who doesn't post very often, -its in my genes perhaps).

Thanks for taking the time and interest in my ongoing weird experiences and conclusions.

Scientia est Potentia (Latin for- Knowledge is Power, an NWO phrase)--
Gnosis (Knowledge) is indeed Empowerment

(the Gnostics thought/taught that direct experience of the divine and arcane grants us valuable knowledge)

-sincerely,
-Indigo