Topic: Sharing pain
In my profession I meet a lot of different people and there is always conversation that arises. I notice patterns, for instance, I notice a lot of women who have symptons of MS, and then I read about aspartame. That really made think. I wonder why that shit is even available to the consumer. Or I would be curious about something, for instance, at what age do people realize they need to use reading glasses. The winner btw, was age 46.
There have been a lot of times when I can be an ass, actually I am prone to it. I felt a lady was being a bit intransigent once, so I started being a bit mean, and she broke down crying and informed me that her husband just had a stroke, and to be brief, just did not need my attitude. I glanced in the next room and could see a man with his back to me, sitting in a chair facing the tv, and I could imagine what mental state he was in, just having experienced a stroke.
There are times when things arise in my thoughts, that make tears want to well up, and I always hold them back. It always hurts right in my throat. I wonder why it hurts there. When it is real life, I will not cry. But some stupid sad moment in a movie, I let a tear or so get out.
Today, a lady started talking about her son, and how he gets upset and unmanageable. All I said was, that an indicator of spiritual evolution is when a person does not become very disturbed over the many and varied concepts that arise each day in the life. She came back with, " well, I'm not into the scientology stuff." I've never studied any of that stuff. Well anyway, she went on to say that her son has been diagnosed with bipolar behavior disorder. So I wondered out loud if they were prescribing medicine to him. Of course that was an affirmative. So I made some small remarks on how they like to get rich messing up the endocrine systems of people. She said that he would literally be extremely dangerous if he didn't take it. This bipolar behavior disorder is another thing I'm seeing more of. That is kind of scary.
It seems like a self fulfilling prophecy type of thing. You convince a person that it is quite probable he may fly into a rage and seriously harm another, unless this medication is taken, I see probabilities in this. What if the person says, "I don't like what this medication is doing to me. It is making me not my self. I'm not going to take it for a while." Now he feels that whatever he does is kind of a freebie. "Well, I wasn't on my medication." I know, this has probably arisen in discussion and at length many times.
If this is physiological, rather than psychological, the conclusion is that these people were born with inherent urges to harm or kill another. I don't buy that, it has to be more than entirely physiological, or even if it is, a person should be able to learn how to make it a very subordinate aspect of his overall state of being.
You have to believe in the impossible in order to become.