Topic: I'm an agent + some stuff you might find interesting
This isn't the post I was first going to put up. I'm not out to hurt anyone and I want to be a normal loving and responsible person.
I have schizophrenia and or DID and I'd like some suggestions for it. I feel blank and almost catatonic and I've lost my intelligence, almost to the point of retardation. When I exhibit loving emotions I'm kind of like a child and it's very weird. Also, all my chakras are screwed and seem weak. Does concentrating on them help? I've been like this from childhood (not dumb, predatory and needy) as far as I can remember. It's taken me a while to see how truly screwed up I am.
Have "Mark of the Beast" on my right hand and left cheek that I got around 14-16.
Also, lump on left side of neck that Lyras book mentioned, it's gone down over time to almost nothing and I've noticed it secrets some kind of liquid that went up into my head and felt like a chemical burn. Neck has gotten very weak and that part of my spine is falling apart I think. The bones make clicking sounds. What happened to yours Lyra? Anyone else gotten this?
Would someone that had no intention of changing experience this? I was pretty smart before. I noticed the ghouls hanging around my chakras before and they're at my crown every once in a while now.
All of a sudden one day I could see the ghouls (dark blurs flying around) and what might be nicer beings (same thing only white). Can see "the morph" and I think this is the only reason I can see them. Why is this hardly ever addressed? Can anyone else see it and is it some type of con?
I'm sorry this is post is so weird and would be very difficult to understand, and might seem downright crazy. If I pollute this forum just by being a member I'll go, but any advice would still be great.