Re: Now I'm just pissed off.
Haha! Those replies were pretty awesome. It's great to hear that others have had this similar problem, and I know that's cliche, but I felt like my anger and confusion was a sign of my spiritual stuntedness.. or something. I didn't feel it like I would "feel" an emotion, but it was... something that I knew but not in words until I wrote it out. I'm going to back-pedal a bit in my spiritual/metaphysical "education" and learn what the basics are for real. I'm not afraid of being STS for awhile because I'm going to pretend like I have not learned this new level of information (I might even read some U.G. Krishnamurti! Lol, no). I'm gonna do some NLP and get rid of my mother-f#$king shyness. But more importantly I'm gonna pray for guidance, something I've been afraid to do (obviously) or maybe I won't lol, we'll see. And Blue doing what you posted sounds easy and fun, it reminds of me osho, who wrote it? Kinda beautiful in a way.
"I'm as mad as hell, and I'm not gonna take it anymore! AAAAHHHHH!!"
And to EON, I really don't know how to respond to your post, cause I've never been in anything like you're situation. But I remember the part about the LSD and the bike thing from a previous post. If negative entities are real, then they are giving you quite the synchronistic hell imo. I have a book by lynn grabhorn that could eliminate the influence of "dark" entities supposedly through a relatively long declaration. It MIGHT somehow magically help your situation, and I'm pretty sure it's posted on this site. Though I don't remember the link. If you can't find it I can help you acquire the book... (I can also help anyone else acquire this book).
I guess my 'write offs' didn't belong in my post Dante. Just trying to keep in the true spirit of "what pisses me off" you know? Guess i got on a roll. I was bent over an old trunk throwing things out ... one over this shoulder, one over that. Guess everyone else's advice is far more sensible. Guess i forgot to mention that a handy list is not always helpful. Guess we're all left guessing at times and realizing we know virtually nothing. Guess you can 'write me off' too if you want.
I've never got a reply in any of the topics I've started that weren't worthy of being there . Yours included. Seriously, don't worry about anything you type because being a recovering social phobic I know that it's absolutely pointless! I spend an hour and a half on one reply because I worry what others think (very bad habit, hard to break , not that serious though). What I'm trying to say is is that you're cool for just replying.